Has been said that though the good things don’t always soften the bad things, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant either. The good bits happened and one can’t undo that. Now, it’s how you deal with the bad which matters.
This project has been quite an entertaining ride. It’s nearing its end (can you believe it?) and, as much as I’d wanted things to go smoothly, it’s understandable to encounter rough patches in the experience.
DAY 20 • 10 April
Remember when I mentioned that I got a bit of my photography mojo back on Day 19? Well, when I did a session this day to take product photos, then process them together with the others I took in Day 19, results weren’t as I expected when I finally uploaded them onto the website I’ve been working on. Of course, this ended up making me feel utterly frustrated. Then add the fact that folks I’m trying to commission a bit of work are non-responsive. Egad. This ain’t good.
It’s becoming more and more difficult to manage a smile in my photos as signs of an incoming panic attack are seen; all due to different factors delaying my work.
DAY 21 • 11 April
One would aim to start a new day fresh and with renewed spirit to tackle tasks either to undo what was deemed unpleasant or, at least, find a way to make things work even if it meant starting from scratch. Er, in my case, I chose to take a step back and do something else while I re-wire my mind. Hopefully, when I go back to taking photos again it will be better.
I did manage to get a small win on Day 21 — was able put in a bit of practice in a skill needed for my new venture — although it was quickly followed by a series of events which left me with a feeling of dread. I ended up unable to sleep that night simply because I was unwittingly exposed to former insecurities. Plus my mind was working overtime with lots of ideas pouring out.
It didn’t help that I knew I needed to get up early the next day.
DAY 22 • 12 April
I knew it wouldn’t be much but, to shake off some of the bad juju from the last couple of days, I decided to get a little dolled up. Yes, call me superficial or shallow, but I do feel good when I see a “pretty” version of myself in the mirror, haha. I was going out anyway. I had to take the almost 7-year old Subaru for a check-up due to an unidentifiable performance issue — well, at least, I can’t seem to put a name to it. Good thing when I did get to talk to the mechanic to describe it, and eventually tried to replicate the situation when the issue would occur during our test drive, he seemed to get it. The car needed its throttle cleaned and it seems the problem has gone away. (Side note: Loved it that the mechanic acknowledged I knew something about cars and that I *really* knew how to drive, haha. Thanks, Sir Toto from the Subaru BGC service centre!)
This errand took nearly 7 hours of my day. And I only had the chance to take a photo when I got back. I’m impressed with the makeup’s staying power, haha.
I used the Nu Skin Advanced Tinted Moisturiser in beige. No foundation just MAC Studio Careblend Pressed Powder in Medium Dark plus a little blush, NARS Deep Throat. Filled in my brows using Laura Mercier Brow Definer in Warm then eye makeup is composed of MAC Powersurge Eye Kohl, MAC Night Trail Pro Longwear Eye Liner, and Nu Colour Curl & Lash Mascara. Lips (conditioned by Sunright Lip Balm) had MAC Lip Liner in Spice on then topped it off with Nu Colour Contouring Lip Gloss in Tender Beige (will tell you more about this later).
The day did end at a high note esp since I was also able to finish it off with a big win in terms of my new venture. Along with a few more solutions I had put into play, which I’m hoping will help me sort out what has been delaying my work.
DAY 23 • 13 April
Alas, the universe isn’t finished with doling out the bad jujus. While I write this, I’m fervently hoping it’ll be the last of it and tomorrow will be way, waaaaay better than today. Because today saw me quite unhappy with what I’m currently going through. It was the first time I actually didn’t want to have my photo taken. Saying I’m having a bad day is an understatement. To be frank, I did a different shoot earlier today, with plans to tell you updates about the hair mask and clay mask I’ve been road-testing, but I got so frustrated that I stopped and trashed the whole thing. Call it PMS-ing.
I had to take a colossal deep breath and decided to do what I did yesterday. Get dolled up, haha. I put on the same thing as yesterday save for the blush, this time I used MAC Blush in Mocha, eye makeup is same without the eye kohl, and for the lips, used MAC Lip Liner in Subculture + MAC Cremesheen Lipstick in Creme Cup then topped it off with Nu Colour Contouring Lip Gloss, this time in Sweet Pink.
It helped to calm me down a bit. That plus an apology I had hoped to get. Still nursing a massive headache — staring at my monitor for the last hour or two isn’t really helping — but I’m hoping tomorrow things will not just be different, but better. That I will be better; more prepared to take the bad with the good, then just get on with it.
How do you deal with bad days?
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You can read other posts that are part of the #NS30 project:
• #NS30: 1st 10 Days with a new regimen
• Summer Roadtrips: White Rock Subic x the Next 4 Days
• #NS30: Hitting the Halfway Mark
• #NS30: Roadtesting the Mascara x Mud Mask x Hair Mask
• #NS30: Easter Weekend
• Final Days of the #NS30 Project